To kill a mockingbird From the perspective of Tom Robinson

Dear Journal,
It’s hard for me to understand why all of those prejudice white people treat me different just cause I am black. It would have been obscure if I had won the case. I would have felt better about the white people in Maycomb maybe there not all hypocrites.In court I probably should not have said I felt bad for Mayella Ewell but I’d be lying if I said that I did not feel bad for her. She doesn’t seem to have much of a life. What she’s done to me is shameful but it’s hard not to pitty her because I’m not sure if her father was forcing her to lie. I think she wanted someone to love but she wasn’t sure what love was or how to get it. That’s because Mayella Ewell had never been loved she’s only been taken advantage of. I can say for sure that Bob Ewell is an evil man but I can’t say it about Mayella Ewell she is a lost soul.
I always had apprehension but I never in my wildest dreams would have thought it was this bad. I think dieing would be better than being in a jail cell all day at least I’m sure if I died it would be better because I know I would be going to heaven because I’ve done nothing wrong unlike a lot of white people. I’m pretty sure that heaven will be great but I miss My family and I would do anything to see them again just once more. I’m going to plan my escape. There is always the possibility that I will make it out without being caught , no matter how improbable. I must stay positive I can’t sustain being here any longer.
At meal time I will hide in the bathroom until all the guards and prisoners have gone to the meal room. I will sneak over to the back door open it and run as fast as my feet will take me. I think that’s a pretty good plan. Hopefully it works.